Thank You Secret Pal!!! (the long version)

First of all, yes I finally did received this package but not without much ado. We were out of town. We got back on Sunday night and rarely use our front door. Monday I went out to the grocery store and when I came home I drove by the front of the house. I saw a sticky note on there and wondered what in the world had UPS tried to deliver. I hadn't ordered anything, Mike said that he hadn't either. I called the 800 number and it said that I could pick it up Monday thru Friday 9am-7pm. There was no more info on the web. So, Tuesday I got up and went to town to get the mystery package and the damn place is closed from 11-12 and of course it's like 11:10. Now, town is no where near where we live or where I was going and I had things to do and had to work so I needed to get home to sleep (I work 12 hour night shifts). I worked Tuesday night, UPS is not too far from where I work so I thought I would just go when I got off work. Wrong..They don't open until 9 and I get off of work usually between 7:30 and 8 am. There was no way I could stay up that long and still drive myself home because on Tuesday before I tried to sleep I had to check my email and found that the May In Touch was available. Needless to say, like most all of us waiting on our kiddos, the info in the In touch sent me into a deep dark depression and angry spiral of sleeplessness. By 7 am on Wednesday I had been awake for nearly 24 hours and busting butt taking care of those wonderful premie babies for 12 of those hours. Finally, yesterday evening I left early for work and went to UPS. They were open and they smiled and handed me my package. I saw that it was from ChinaSprout and was so excited and already started crying in my car. I had an idea that it might be from you guys because I couldn't think of anyone else it could be from. I opened the package and read the card and looked at my shirt and held it to my face and cried and cried. I was almost late for work.

Will I ever be a Ma Ma like my new shirt says?

I said all of that to say this...THANK YOU!!! Your gift was the only Mother's Day gift that I received because I'm not a mother, but yearn so badly to be able to celebrate that day. The tee shirt gives me hope. I wouldn't own a Ma Ma shirt if I was not a Ma Ma, right? One part of me wants to wear that shirt everyday to proclaim that I am a Mom. Another part of me wants to hide it for fear of embarrassment. I'm afraid someone will say, "why are you wearing that Ma Ma shirt? Your not a Mom".
I loved the puzzle too. It's really cool. Thank you so much for always being so thoughtful. And thank you for knowing that I will be a Ma Ma someday.